Not Pregnant- IVF 1 failed

Today I lost both babies. My heart is sad. 

I'm looking forward to getting home from work and finally grieving.  I already knew the answer, but just had to wait to know for sure. I will meet again with the doctor on December 19th and discuss the embryology report. We will discuss where we go from there. I hate that I have to wait through basically two more cycles before doing this again. It will be near the end of February before we finish IVF cycle 2. I wish we could just jump back in...I'm ready to see my baby(s). I know God has one for me. Christmas is going to be hard...and, though I'm glad I told people, I really don't want to talk about it. I don't want encouragement and hugs...I just want a child. Maybe I'm being a jerk, but right now I don't want sympathy. We are so incredibly blessed and this is just our 1 really hard trial. We will manage and hopefully look back someday and barely remember this.