Even though I know in my heart that I am having a miscarriage, there is still this part of me that hopes for the impossible. God is in the business of giving us hope when it looks like there is none to be found. He gave us a baby when we least expected it, why can't He just let this baby live even though every sign says this is the end? He is the giver of hope! God, I know you have a good purpose in this...please give me hope for this situation. I have to get my blood drawn on Thursday, and I know the nurse will call & say I'm not pregnant anymore. Please give me hope for the next steps after that phone call. When all I see on Facebook are pictures of happy babies & families, pregnant bellies, announcements of pregnancies & baby showers, please give me hope for my journey. Drive away bitter thoughts and anger. They creep in & can destroy my joy. Let me hate bitter thoughts and anger more than I hate infertility & miscarriage. Thank you for giving me hope in Jesus & remind me of this today. I am really struggling.
My cousin in-law sent me a verse today. She and my cousin have also gone through a miscarriage. It reminds me that I do have hope during times that feel hopeless. Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." I'm praying today for reminders of that hope.
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