Processing the Pain

I'm still processing the pain. 

I still have a lot of trouble sleeping at night. My mind wanders a lot and I just can't get comfortable. I am going through some physical pain on and off, but it is very bearable. You would think my body would be through with this process, but I continue to experience all the physical parts of miscarriage. It's like a physical reminder that has continued for about a week now, that continues to tell me I'm losing my baby. I know when all that is gone, I won't instantly forget the pain. One of my dear friends told me that she still thinks about her miscarriage, even after 3 beautiful children. I'm glad to know that when the waves of crying or grief hit me, there are other people that understand that longing. If you are my friend on facebook, please don't take my silly facebook statuses to mean that I am not sad. Facebook isn't exactly the place I want to share this. Here I am somewhat anonymous, unless you are a friend or family member. Tonight I am so sad over this, I just can't sleep. I know God says he will give you peace that no one can understand. I had some really happy times with my family tonight, and though I am sad right now, I know God will send me peace...eventually. I'm thankful for a husband who has been loving me so well. Praying tonight for some peace...hoping to sleep soon. I still know I am loved by my Savior and my husband. (many others too!)